How it feels like: To be sick

I feel flushed. I feel as though my head is on fire. What is happening to me? Am I sick? Am I spending too much time at home? I don't know. All I know is that this is driving me insane. I am sure I am not in love so I can scratch that off. The only possible reason is aliment! Perhaps I spent too much time running around? Is it really that cold outside? I think my mind if going off course. I need to get my thoughts together. Firstly, what am I doing? Okay, I am sitting in a cold room without a heater. But I am in a blanket, how can this be? I am perfectly warm. Oh, here comes mom, thank goodness. Mom, hey Mom! Can you help me? I think I'm burning up.

SHINee: Onew

Onew is my idol. He is one of the best things that had ever been put onto this planet next to Crepes, Tacos and Anime. Onew is a member of a Korean pop group named SHINee. Onew is only his stage name though; his name is Lee Jinki! The reason why I adore him so much is because when someone asked him if he wanted a child or chicken, with no hesitation he picked chicken. Also, when he was dancing on stage during a song... he dropped his mic! Well, usually people would think he bent down and got it. Most guys would have, I'll admit it. Anyways, he drives head first into the stage to get it and since this was being recorded, all you see in the camera shot was his legs fly upward into the air. He is my idol and if anyone heard me talk about chicken, I would eventually quote Onew.

No Romance Series: I know you know

Some people call me cocky
And some call me rude
Some people just believe that
I speak nothing but truth
At least I can say I'm truthful
Won't stop what I do
Cause I I I I know you know I got it

No Romance Series: Iris

I'd give up eternity to see you
Cause I know that you know me somehow
You would listen to my silly thoughts
For all the off hours right now
So all I taste is the air for the moment
And all I could breathe is it all
But sooner or later it's over
But I don't want to leave you alone

And I don't want the world to discover
That there's something I don't understand
When my reflection on a mirror is broken
Let the black cat take form in my hand

Memory is fleeting

A perfect memory does not exist. Memories are supposed to fade with every passing moment of remembrance. The only true memories that remain straight are the ones we forget the moment they happen. So then what is the point of them? Good or bad, we have no other option but to remember or not to remember. We cannot just cease to recall anything. I wonder why all memories that are recalled seem to delude themselves. is this even a scientific fact? My memory is fleeting as well for I cannot remember how I learned such a piece of information

It will take me a minute to wish

Looking at the shooting stars and the vastness of the night sky, I gazed at a shooting star and closed my eyes. What should I wish for? I could wish for a pony that I never received in my childhood or perhaps I desire a grand amount of money to use for whatever purpose I deem necessary. There are so many things to wish for and I cannot even begin to imagine the possibilities of a single wish. I re-opened my eyes and thousands of stars were gliding across the stars. As I lay down on the grassy field with everyone from my neighbourhood outside on the same land as I, I realized that I could wish all what I wanted. I shall wish for money, ponies, and maybe even a love. I’ve always wanted to fall in love with a fantastic boy who would love me for who I am. The light of the stars would be my hope and my path toward my dreams, or at least this is what I believe. Silly me, 15 years old and I still believe in shooting stars granting everyone’s dreams. I got up as the night sky was fading into dusk and the morning sun was peeking itself from over the hillside. I walked away and suddenly I found myself falling down and a boy with short black hair, reaching his hand down. “Are you okay?” he asked with a worried tone. I looked into his sparkling blue eyes as the sunrise reflected off of them and took his hand. “Thank you” I replied with a smile. Maybe one of my wishes will come true right now.

Dreaming Awake

     "What would happen if I died, right here and now?". I would have lost a future for myself. I wanted to get married, have kids, and maybe a dog. I would have loved to have a girl named Cecilia. She would have long black hair with a small curl at the end. I would give her his straw sun hat with a blue ribbon tied upon its head and take a picture of her with it on in a field of sun flowers. She would smile at me and twirl around with her lovely blue dress on. One that looked like it came out of the Victorian era with white laces and a corset. She could say "I love you mommy" all she wants and hug me with her small arms. My husband would be none other than a boy from my childhood. Antonio, 1 year my senior. He has green crystal eyes and short spiked blonde hair. I remember back when I was only in seventh grade and trying to make my way through life. Back then, I had no idea of his name other than it sounded like "Anthony". Turns out he was Italian. Thus, I called him as such and to this day, have been the only one to call him that. One day, this person in my class with the same name had antagonized me and I screamed out "I hate you Anthony!" and just as I was about to say that boys last name, Antonio ran past me with a basket ball in his hand. he turned around when he got a fair distance. I never even knew he went to the same school as I did. I usually only saw him at church. The way he looked that day was a face I would never forget. The skin on his brow had crushed slightly and his eyes wide open. His lips were partially open and I could even see his two front teeth. He never talked to me again afterward. To this day, I would think about him. I believe that it was all too late for me and him but I was still passionately in love with that boy. Even now, I am still infatuated with the mere memories he left with me. I wish he, Cecilia and I could buy an island and stay there together forever, just the three of us. That is impossible now. My love now believes I despise him and Cecilia will never be born. Antonio now has moved on and I still live within the walls of the past. I closed my eyes and went to sleep. Another night gone by, another thought crossed along. Either way, this thought will never be forgot.

Time Cliff

I walked upon the edge of time itself. I looked down into the endless vast sequences of life and upon the swirls of it all. Seconds ticking constantly in the clock of my own making which I now held in my hands, feeling it's wooden features. I carried it around with me as I frolicked along the cliff side of everyone's mountain of time. When people say they have no time, they have almost all of world's time. I sat down and stared at my clock. 11:59.59. My time was about to run out. Somehow, my time froze and now I found myself here; sitting with life and time. I pressed my thumb against the second hand and pushed it forward one more millisecond. I am now laying in a pool of my own blood next to the truck that had hit me in the right side of my head. My eyes just stared at the sky and time had started to move. I heard someone call "Ambulance! We need an Ambulance!". They just didn't understand; my time had just ran out.

No Romance Series: Give and Take

There's a problem
If you poke me
I'll poke you too

I'll go back on facebook
I came to look for you

So when you message me
I'll message you too

So when you message me
I'll message you too

If you search me up, you'll find me crazy
Cause we were the best of
The best of
If you type me in, you'll fine me lazy
Cause we were the best of
The best of
Friends

Ziggy Ziggy la la
(Friends)
Ziggy Ziggy ha ha
(Friends)

Ziggy Ziggy la la
(Friends)
Ziggy Ziggy ha ha

And I have pictures in mind
I have to take in time

I can barely think of anything straight
I can barely browse on my laptop

I can barely think of anything straight
I can barely browse on my laptop


So when you message me
I'll message you too

So when you message me
I'll message you too

No Romance Series: Fall for you

Best thing about tonight is the clear black sky
Could it be that I have never seen this before?
I know that thinking would just be wasteful
As I lay on a grassy ground floor

So I hold my breath
Because tonight will be the night the stars come over again
Don't think I'll change my mind
To see them shining across the universe
Because a night like this is hard to ever find
It's almost impossible to find

This was not what was forecasted
I always swore that clouds were always covering up
I always thought that stormy weather
Would eventually fail
But I have loved night time from the start
Ohh, but I held my breath


Because tonight will be the night the stars come over again
Don't think I'll change my mind
To see them shining across the universe
Because a night like this is hard to ever find
It's almost impossible to find

So I breathed in so deep
Breathed in fresh air
Thats mine to keep
Hold onto my hopes
Cause talk is cheap
So I will remember this night
When I fall asleep.


Because tonight will be the night the stars come over again
Don't think I'll change my mind
To see them shining across the universe
Because a night like this is hard to ever find
It's almost impossible to find

Tonight is a night that rarely appears over again
Don't think I can change my mind
Shining stars blanketing my view
I swear it's true
Because a night like this is impossible to find
This is impossible to find


Non romantic version of Fall for you by Second Serenade. I did the whole song this time but I wonder if I missed anything. If I did then oh well, it was fun to write it anyways. I simply adore the night sky when a veil of stars over my entire view of it. Thus, I wrote this song for that purpose instead of some girl.

No Romance Series: Chasing Cars

All that I am
All that I've become

Reflects in the waters glow
It's all I can see

I don't know why
Confused about that as well
To know that these things will never
Change for me after all.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Could the world pass by as a reflection?

Forget what I know
Before I get too old
Show me a world that burst within my mind